It's not all about you

It's not all about you.....

I've had a some time to think about this. I am sat in a waiting room in a hospital while a good friend of ours is in the critical care unit and her husband and my wife are visiting this evening.

You think you have all the problems in the world and it's all crashing down around you and suddenly a short sharp shock in the form of somebody elses terribly sad news comes out of the blue and stops you in your tracks and suddenly you feel very silly, no not silly self centered and selfish. Harsh words but incredibly true.

This is going to be a journey for everyone I write about including myself..... especially myself.

I'm going to try and make sense of me, my illness and not just how if affects me and makes me see things very differently but how it affects my wife as she has had to not just support me but keep herself together, hide my episodes from the kids and go to work full time.

My aim is to get better and better I shall get. I know I've come along way from the dark times I've had and I also know how easy it is to fall back a few steps but that's life, nothing gets fixed over night.

But in time I'm going to fix Mr P